What a Day!

It was a rollercoaster of a day. At the end of the day I truly believe that Mom is better. She is communicating by pointing to letters on a chart but it is really hard to follow what she is trying to say. I am hoping that tomorrow we are able to get her off the ventilator ... but we have an appointment with radiation at 10am and she gets her second dosage of velcade. I am hoping there are no side effects from the velcade (the first dose she slept through it). Mom was scared today ... really scared. And very uncomfortable with the tube down her throat ... she kept choking on it -- it was awful. It was especially awful when she was saying "help me" ... it broke my heart. I am praying that with the fentanyl gone she will be thinking more clearly and that she will understand that we are trying to help her the best way we can. Hard day. But I truly believe she is stronger and we are closer to making an exit out of ICU.